I set an intention at the beginning of February to "LET GO of old S#%T beliefs that are no longer serve me and embody 'Wonder Woman'. My intention is to value and appreciate myself"
Wow, I didn't realise how hard letting go actually is, maybe not for you, but for me it has been an emotional rollercoaster!
I had an incident at work that left me feeling emotional, inadequate and small. I could feel old stuff coming up.. So later that day at home I decided to have a little therapy session with myself.
This is quite personal, but I want to share in the chance it may help someone else.
I wrote down a list of all the positive aspects about work
- I have flexibility
- the members are lovely and great to chat to
- it's fun during classes
- i get paid every month on time
- it's close to home
- the trainers are great
There's a few more but you get the idea! This helps to shift your focus from what's not working to work is working, allowing you to be in a better emotional and mental state of mind. Focusing on what is working then allows more positive thoughts and ideas to enter. Focusing on what you don't want brings in more negativity and blocks the positive.
I then wrote a list of how I want to feel in my job (you can be as specific as you feel, I like to go general until it feels good to be specific). If there is resistance (you will feel tightness in your chest or stomach) you need to go general.
I am rewarded spiritually
I am rewarded financially
I am rewarded emotionally
I get to do something I absolutely love and sets my heart on fire
I feel light
I feel empowered
I feel valued
I value myself
I love myself dearly
I have made my decision. I have a freaking awesome career. It feels like happiness and rainbows and the ocean on my skin and the sun hitting my skin. It feels like sweet love. It feels like kisses. It feels like love.
It feels like chocolate ice-cream
It feels like warmth
It feels like space and expansion
It feels like comfort and certainty
It feels fresh and new
It feels rejuvenating
It feels like a 24/7 holiday - fun, adventurous, nurturing, calm, expansion.
It feels like floating on my unicorn in the pool - pure happiness and delight
It feels magical
It feels exciting
It feels easy
It feels natural
It feels like alignment
It feels like playing in the water at the beach with Peter
It feels like home
It feels centred
It feels special
It feels magical
It feels like the crystal cave
It feels like love
It feels like self love
It feels like endless expansion
It feels like anything is possible
It feels sexy
It feels open
It feels like thankfulness
This exercise I enjoy and helps to shift not only my focus but my overall vibration. I love it.
Lots of love
Last night I went to bed so early (9pm) and slept right through till 6am. Yesterday I felt tired and drained, so I sent myself off to bed to try and recharge. This happens to me sometimes, where I feel like I can't see or talk to anyone.. my "cup is empty" as they say. How did this happen?? It crept up on me so quickly.
Upon reflection, after a full nights rest and a wonderful beach run, the answer is stress. Stess and worry dominated my thoughts was 2 days, which is EXHAUSTING. Plus trying to juggle work, exercise and seeing friends/family.
"Worrying is praying for what you don't want"