Hey guys, this is the first blog sharing my story and vision over the next 12 weeks.
I have always been sporty, healthy and into fitness but I love food, believe in having a lifestyle and never going on a diet or restricting food. Based on what I've read and my own experiences, when you restrict yourself it can be stressful and lead to overeating.
Anyway, in my teenage years I was most often than not very happy, my friends at school would ask me "what Are you on?" And I would reply "I'm high on life!" And I was very proud of it. I saw the world as an endless possibility for growth, fun and adventure. An opportunity to be with the people you love, meet new interesting people, have fun and do whatever you want. For each day to be a journey and if you're having a bad day or a set back to always look at how you can turn it around for the better. Now that I think about it, for a young kid I had an awesome outlook on life and I still remember the feeling.. I would jump out of bed every morning with so much energy, excited for the day ahead. Some people may remark "yeah she's young just wait till she realises that life isn't easy and she'll wise up"
In fact, those years were one of the wisest of my life because I rarely let anything get to me and I was so happy - isn't that the point?
So, between around 20-25 years I was in a relationship with a guy whom I thought I was in love with and I was going to be with him forever. The problem was, and I didn't realise it at the time, he was rarely present in my life or encouraging my wild, dreamy ways. After our breakup I was heart broken and it made me question my judge in character "how could I not see?!", I lost all of my confidence, I stopped listening to my intuition and I lost my connection with myself and subsequently that spark inside of me vanished. I was now in survival mode. Most people wouldn't have noticed much, but I knew that the way of was feeling wasn't the way I wanted to live my life. But because I was feeling so sorry for myself that I allowed this guy into my life for 5 years who turned out to be not what I thought and he disappointment me on many occasions - I hit rock bottom. I couldn't envision my life, I couldn't see the future and this scared me as I was always so excited about the possibilities of the future and what I could do or accomplish. At the time I was trying to run a health and fitness business but hardly surviving. My energy suffered, I gained weight (about 10kg) and I stopped a lot of social activities because I wasn't feeling good about myself and simply, didn't want to be around people.
I let an experience get me down and I didn't know how to get myself up.
Only recently (3.5years after that breakup!!) have I felt more like the true me.. Truly connected to who I am. I'm not sure if you know what that feels like, but it's a wonderful feeling of bliss, lightness, harmony, grounded, knowing, sureness, love.
I started educating myself on the law of attraction and applying some of the principles in my life so I could start to create change and move forward.
I also began the process of healing and forgiveness. I'll be honest, one weekend I spent in bed sobbing and crying. The funny thing was it felt good, my body was releasing negative emotions and I felt relief. Each time I did cry I felt even more relief. It was the strangest thing and I'm so glad I gave myself the space to heal because it opened me up again so there was space for new.
Healing emotionally is a process of "clearing the pipes" and getting rid of any self judgement for good. You have to find the way that suits you but it involves being kind to yourself, yoga, sleep, water, meditation, crying, journaling, walks in nature, reflection, forgiveness and decluttering! I read in a psychology book years ago that to grieve something the brain has to remember it and recall it before it can let it go. So I found myself thinking of some of the bad times, disappointments, anger, regret, doubt and feeling the emotions which was quite painful and then letting them go! See ya! I would talk to myself and say "ok get out of my body now, I forgive you and I forgive myself! I'm ready for you to leave!" And it did. I used the power of the breathe to let go of a lot of negative energy that I was holding onto.
My life has changed a lot over the past few months. I am more relaxed, centred and grounded. My relationships with my friends and family have blossomed. And I was lucky enough to meet a beautiful man.
For the first time in a long time I am very excited about the future and all the possibilities it holds. So, that's what brings us here to lenilovesyou.com, my way of sharing my message and contributing back to the world. My vision is to share from the heart my learning, thoughts and experiences because I believe we all have a story and it matters to somebody. If we peel off the layers and our true selves then maybe we can help each other heal and move forward. I want us to connect with ourselves, spread the message of joy, peace and love because I believe, those three words alone, would create a better world.
On this site I'll also be sharing my own body transformation including my food and fitness regime as well as what I do mentally to stay focused!
I'm looking forward to improving my heath and fitness over the next 12 weeks and beyond.
- I want to lose about 5kg
- run around the tan twice nonstop and
- hold a handstand for 30seconds.
Even though my goals are important, my focus is on being the best I can be, being happy, present and connected to my dreams, passions and desires - because when we are connected we have boundless energy and we can give so much to others!
I hope you get value out of my story and feel free to pass this on to anyone who you think may like it!
Love Eleni xx