Sometimes you gotta take it day by day❤️
I feel like I am not doing enough, not good enough, not achieving enough. I am doing my best to stay grateful and grounded but I feel a heaviness that I can't seem to shift. I had to say goodbye to someone that was important to me, and the void of their absence makes me feel sad and a little lost. Although I know this time will pass, I cannot help the grief and sadness that hangs over my head like a dark cloud.
But this is life, full of ups and downs and unexpected events.
In addition to this I feel as though I am going through some sort of "growth" or transition of change within my self.. For my spiritual friends you know exactly what I mean.
It's a period of the unknown and lack of clarity as we look into ourselves and expand from who we were to who we want to be. It's a confusing and painful time, but I asked for it. Last year I vowed, I want to expand and grow!! Because to me, this is what life is all about; self discovery, love and growth. But right now, I'm feeling like crawling into a little ball!
I already feel better by writing this and sharing my story. We all have some days where we don't feel ourselves and it is OK. One thing I do know is that in this state, I am much more vulnerable to compare myself to others and doubt my abilities.. Which is super annoying.
I think distraction is a good tool to avoid negative thinking, and catching your thoughts before they head towards a downward spiral..! I am also making sure to be kind to myself, eat healthy delicious foods and exercise.
To make myself feel better before work today, I am going to clean my apartment, draw up some goals and go for a walk. Or I may not do all those things, we'll see!
Right now I am looking for clarity, so until it comes I have to get comfortable with being a little uncomfortable, and keep moving forward :)