Your answers are always within
Hey team! Far out, I have been quiet in here this month.. Writing in this community page is something I love to do because I love sharing knowledge and empowering other people to think differently! Anyway, I feel I have been kinda going through a transformation inside myself.. I have been challenged with old negative beliefs which has made me frustrated and at first I was fighting them which was actually exhausting. When I realised this I decided to let them go, and focus on creating some new beliefs!!
This is quite personal but I want to share my experience with you.
As some of you may know, in 5 days I am off to Greece for 2 1/2 weeks to meet up with my partner and explore the country, food and culture!!
The interesting part is that after I booked it, I was very excited but then confronted with old shit beliefs! Now, just for the record, beliefs are thoughts that we keep thinking and we have the power to change them even though sometimes they feel overpowering. I honestly think the past few weeks I have been fighting these beliefs. To give you an idea, the old beliefs that didn't feel good AT ALL were around deserving this holiday!! And money!! Can I afford to go? Should I go? Is it irresponsible if I go? Should I stay home and work? What happens if I don't have enough money? Bla bla bla bla. Crap.
Let me take you back to when it started. First, I was getting frequent headaches- a sign that I was anxious.. Then I was very confronted with the old beliefs that shot through my body as fast as the speed of light and froze me up like a prisoner in a 2x2 cell, I went into fight or flight mode and tried to escape by pushing them away. Not literally pushing my arms out haha but this was all happening inside myself! But, when you push things away you are still focused upon them and so they are still present in your daily life. This was exhausting. I found myself sleeping more and feeling tired. It was zapping me. Also, the terrorism going on and the negativity in the media fueled my fears. I started feeling anxious about travelling on my own to Greece and feeling insecure about not knowing the language as well as I would like. I disliked this feeling and I had to do something.
Then last week- about 2-3 weeks of this vicious cycle, I woke up and thought "this isn't me! I am not afraid of travel or the unknown!! I am an independent, fun and adventurous woman!" I said "enough!" Then and there I decided to meditate with my favourite chakra healing on YouTube and then went outside to the beach for a jog/walk which I hadn't done all month! If you know me well, you know these two activities are a big part of my happiness. During my meditation and jog I CHOSE to let go of the beliefs, telling them to leave my body for good. Afterwards, I felt amazing and proud of myself for taking control. A few days followed and I continued to meditate and literally re-wire my brain!! The old thoughts do come up and rear their ugly head and I am followed by an intense feeling of fear and anxiety, but this is now a signal that I am focused on the wrong shit. I shifted my focus to what I desire and completely changed the way I felt. These are the type of things I focused on and put all my energy into:
Appreciation- appreciating my life and how lucky I am to be healthy, young, loved and alive
Trusting- trusting that money flows in abundantly and prosperity is natural (not lack!!)
Excitement- focusing on being excited about life, what could I focus on that brings me joy?
- the surprise birthday gift I am planning for my brother
- The dinner I am planning for my pt clients
- Going on an adventure
- Going into the unknown and embracing it!
- Eating amazing food and meeting new people whilst away
- Getting better at Greek while I am away
- Embracing the new beliefs, a new beginning of change and expansion
- Excited for my clients to continue to get stronger and fitter
- Excited that I am getting stronger and fitter
This is quite personal for me to share, but I chose to share it because we are all human and we are not perfect, nor should we try to be. Every single person has their own stuff going on and if they aren't seeming like them self then perhaps they are working some stuff out, like I was.
Be patient with yourself and my biggest advice is to appreciate life and truly live it everyday. Do things that you enjoy or make you laugh every single day. Think about it this way, imagine if you never saw your partner again? And you didn't give them a loving hug that day because you were in a rush? What if today was your last day and you spent it anxious and stressed out?
My message is consistent throughout all my blogs and posts- connect with who you are, know what makes you happy, joyful and passionate. And be that person, even if it means you have to let go of the shit you've been holding onto and remember who you are- that playful, loving and excitable person!!
Ok long blog! But I guess if you took the time to read it, you were meant to hear what I had to say today.
Keep smiling :)
Lots of love,
P.S My favourite Chakra Healing meditation is http://youtu.be/Y1xwtA6C2DQ and is about 20minutes.