Today I did a "hot flow yoga" class and wow it was incredible. I had planned to do the class yesterday and somehow it was just what I needed, what my body and soul needed. This morning I woke up feeling tight everywhere; neck, back, lower back and hamstrings. I actually thought "maybe I shouldn't do yoga because I'm so sore and it will be really hard" which I quickly dismissed with "I will enjoy it and do my best, I need the calming benefits that yoga offers"
The best thing about yoga is the space the teacher creates, she started with "now take some deep breathes into your belly, breathe out any stress or emotion that isn't serving you, connect with your breath, connect with your body".
I instantly felt relief as I did this with a little smile to myself thinking "yep, this is exactly where I need to be right now".
The class started slow with some dynamic twists and stretches, as the class progressed to a faster pace my body temperature rose and I was dripping with sweat! Literally, sweat dripping off every inch of my body and even into my eyes haha!
I didn't mind one bit. I was loving the flow, deep breathing and at one point I even imagined that my sweat was any stress leaving my body! Very cool feeling.
Forty minutes in I was feeling fatigued and I glimpsed at the clock and gasped to myself "we've still got 20 minutes left!" Then I quietly reminded myself to stay present and enjoy the rest of the class, which I did.
We ended with balance poses on one leg (these are my fav!) and stretches on the ground and finally a 5 minute meditation with 3 loud "oms".
This class was a gentle reminder to always take time to breathe and connect with yourself, no matter how busy you are because this will create space for more positivity and creative thinking for life and work!
Sometimes you gotta take it day by day❤️
I feel like I am not doing enough, not good enough, not achieving enough. I am doing my best to stay grateful and grounded but I feel a heaviness that I can't seem to shift. I had to say goodbye to someone that was important to me, and the void of their absence makes me feel sad and a little lost. Although I know this time will pass, I cannot help the grief and sadness that hangs over my head like a dark cloud.
But this is life, full of ups and downs and unexpected events.
In addition to this I feel as though I am going through some sort of "growth" or transition of change within my self.. For my spiritual friends you know exactly what I mean.
It's a period of the unknown and lack of clarity as we look into ourselves and expand from who we were to who we want to be. It's a confusing and painful time, but I asked for it. Last year I vowed, I want to expand and grow!! Because to me, this is what life is all about; self discovery, love and growth. But right now, I'm feeling like crawling into a little ball!
I already feel better by writing this and sharing my story. We all have some days where we don't feel ourselves and it is OK. One thing I do know is that in this state, I am much more vulnerable to compare myself to others and doubt my abilities.. Which is super annoying.
I think distraction is a good tool to avoid negative thinking, and catching your thoughts before they head towards a downward spiral..! I am also making sure to be kind to myself, eat healthy delicious foods and exercise.
To make myself feel better before work today, I am going to clean my apartment, draw up some goals and go for a walk. Or I may not do all those things, we'll see!
Right now I am looking for clarity, so until it comes I have to get comfortable with being a little uncomfortable, and keep moving forward :)
Your answers are always within
Hey team! Far out, I have been quiet in here this month.. Writing in this community page is something I love to do because I love sharing knowledge and empowering other people to think differently! Anyway, I feel I have been kinda going through a transformation inside myself.. I have been challenged with old negative beliefs which has made me frustrated and at first I was fighting them which was actually exhausting. When I realised this I decided to let them go, and focus on creating some new beliefs!!
This is quite personal but I want to share my experience with you.
As some of you may know, in 5 days I am off to Greece for 2 1/2 weeks to meet up with my partner and explore the country, food and culture!!
The interesting part is that after I booked it, I was very excited but then confronted with old shit beliefs! Now, just for the record, beliefs are thoughts that we keep thinking and we have the power to change them even though sometimes they feel overpowering. I honestly think the past few weeks I have been fighting these beliefs. To give you an idea, the old beliefs that didn't feel good AT ALL were around deserving this holiday!! And money!! Can I afford to go? Should I go? Is it irresponsible if I go? Should I stay home and work? What happens if I don't have enough money? Bla bla bla bla. Crap.
Let me take you back to when it started. First, I was getting frequent headaches- a sign that I was anxious.. Then I was very confronted with the old beliefs that shot through my body as fast as the speed of light and froze me up like a prisoner in a 2x2 cell, I went into fight or flight mode and tried to escape by pushing them away. Not literally pushing my arms out haha but this was all happening inside myself! But, when you push things away you are still focused upon them and so they are still present in your daily life. This was exhausting. I found myself sleeping more and feeling tired. It was zapping me. Also, the terrorism going on and the negativity in the media fueled my fears. I started feeling anxious about travelling on my own to Greece and feeling insecure about not knowing the language as well as I would like. I disliked this feeling and I had to do something.
Then last week- about 2-3 weeks of this vicious cycle, I woke up and thought "this isn't me! I am not afraid of travel or the unknown!! I am an independent, fun and adventurous woman!" I said "enough!" Then and there I decided to meditate with my favourite chakra healing on YouTube and then went outside to the beach for a jog/walk which I hadn't done all month! If you know me well, you know these two activities are a big part of my happiness. During my meditation and jog I CHOSE to let go of the beliefs, telling them to leave my body for good. Afterwards, I felt amazing and proud of myself for taking control. A few days followed and I continued to meditate and literally re-wire my brain!! The old thoughts do come up and rear their ugly head and I am followed by an intense feeling of fear and anxiety, but this is now a signal that I am focused on the wrong shit. I shifted my focus to what I desire and completely changed the way I felt. These are the type of things I focused on and put all my energy into:
Appreciation- appreciating my life and how lucky I am to be healthy, young, loved and alive
Trusting- trusting that money flows in abundantly and prosperity is natural (not lack!!)
Excitement- focusing on being excited about life, what could I focus on that brings me joy?
- the surprise birthday gift I am planning for my brother
- The dinner I am planning for my pt clients
- Going on an adventure
- Going into the unknown and embracing it!
- Eating amazing food and meeting new people whilst away
- Getting better at Greek while I am away
- Embracing the new beliefs, a new beginning of change and expansion
- Excited for my clients to continue to get stronger and fitter
- Excited that I am getting stronger and fitter
This is quite personal for me to share, but I chose to share it because we are all human and we are not perfect, nor should we try to be. Every single person has their own stuff going on and if they aren't seeming like them self then perhaps they are working some stuff out, like I was.
Be patient with yourself and my biggest advice is to appreciate life and truly live it everyday. Do things that you enjoy or make you laugh every single day. Think about it this way, imagine if you never saw your partner again? And you didn't give them a loving hug that day because you were in a rush? What if today was your last day and you spent it anxious and stressed out?
My message is consistent throughout all my blogs and posts- connect with who you are, know what makes you happy, joyful and passionate. And be that person, even if it means you have to let go of the shit you've been holding onto and remember who you are- that playful, loving and excitable person!!
Ok long blog! But I guess if you took the time to read it, you were meant to hear what I had to say today.
Keep smiling :)
Lots of love,
P.S My favourite Chakra Healing meditation is http://youtu.be/Y1xwtA6C2DQ and is about 20minutes.
I was just pondering on something yesterday that made me realise I have changed. I was thinking about my 12 week challenge I am doing and rewarding myself with a manicure when I achieve 1kg weight loss! You can't hear my tone but I said it with conviction and excitement. This took me off guard because - and I'm not sure if you're going to be able to relate to this- but when I have tried to set specific goals like this in the past I would first feel good that I was goal setting but then a wave of fear would sweep over me and THROUGH my body and would think "well, how am I gonna do THAT?" and the worst self judgement ever "what if I don't? That'll be really annoying and then I'll get all disappointed.. I really don't wanna feel disappointed that I didn't get there.." and in less than 10minutes my mind was off the excitement of the goal!! The POSSIBILITY of not achieving it took over my thoughts and emotions. I was off track.
Can you relate or am I the only crazy one that has this self dialogue going on?
Anyway, after some reflection on how my mindset has shifted I realised the biggest thing that I have been doing which has helped me - is going GENERAL with my goals and focusing on what FEELS GOOD.
Our emotions play a massive role on what we do and for me, even though I wanted to lose a certain amount of weight, focusing on it DIDNT FEEL GOOD! It was too specific and created a shift in my mood and therefore the actions I took. In other words, I wanted it but I wasn't motivated by it!
So, the coolest tool I have learnt over the past year from Esther Hicks and Aaron Montague is to "go general" and make sure the goal feels good. I'll be honest with you, it took me a while to even understand what this meant, however, when I started applying it in my life thing started to shift for me! I stopped going back and forth and was more consistent in my thoughts and actions!
For example you can choose to focus on a specific or general goal (whatever feels the best to you!)
Specific: I want to lose 10kg
General: I want to feel good
I want to feel healthy
I want more energy
I want to feel more confident
I want to feel lighter
I want to feel stronger
I want to feel more in control
Going general can really change the way you see yourself and your goals and can be so much more motivating!
We can have control over our thoughts and emotions, it just takes a decision to shift your focus to what feels good! It may sound like a simple concept, but it works!
Hope you are having an amazing day.
Always believe in yourself and what you want. Your goals should excite you, and the excitement and passion you will feel will create a momentum of change in your life!
Love Eleni xx
Hey guys, this is the first blog sharing my story and vision over the next 12 weeks.
I have always been sporty, healthy and into fitness but I love food, believe in having a lifestyle and never going on a diet or restricting food. Based on what I've read and my own experiences, when you restrict yourself it can be stressful and lead to overeating.
Anyway, in my teenage years I was most often than not very happy, my friends at school would ask me "what Are you on?" And I would reply "I'm high on life!" And I was very proud of it. I saw the world as an endless possibility for growth, fun and adventure. An opportunity to be with the people you love, meet new interesting people, have fun and do whatever you want. For each day to be a journey and if you're having a bad day or a set back to always look at how you can turn it around for the better. Now that I think about it, for a young kid I had an awesome outlook on life and I still remember the feeling.. I would jump out of bed every morning with so much energy, excited for the day ahead. Some people may remark "yeah she's young just wait till she realises that life isn't easy and she'll wise up"
In fact, those years were one of the wisest of my life because I rarely let anything get to me and I was so happy - isn't that the point?
So, between around 20-25 years I was in a relationship with a guy whom I thought I was in love with and I was going to be with him forever. The problem was, and I didn't realise it at the time, he was rarely present in my life or encouraging my wild, dreamy ways. After our breakup I was heart broken and it made me question my judge in character "how could I not see?!", I lost all of my confidence, I stopped listening to my intuition and I lost my connection with myself and subsequently that spark inside of me vanished. I was now in survival mode. Most people wouldn't have noticed much, but I knew that the way of was feeling wasn't the way I wanted to live my life. But because I was feeling so sorry for myself that I allowed this guy into my life for 5 years who turned out to be not what I thought and he disappointment me on many occasions - I hit rock bottom. I couldn't envision my life, I couldn't see the future and this scared me as I was always so excited about the possibilities of the future and what I could do or accomplish. At the time I was trying to run a health and fitness business but hardly surviving. My energy suffered, I gained weight (about 10kg) and I stopped a lot of social activities because I wasn't feeling good about myself and simply, didn't want to be around people.
I let an experience get me down and I didn't know how to get myself up.
Only recently (3.5years after that breakup!!) have I felt more like the true me.. Truly connected to who I am. I'm not sure if you know what that feels like, but it's a wonderful feeling of bliss, lightness, harmony, grounded, knowing, sureness, love.
I started educating myself on the law of attraction and applying some of the principles in my life so I could start to create change and move forward.
I also began the process of healing and forgiveness. I'll be honest, one weekend I spent in bed sobbing and crying. The funny thing was it felt good, my body was releasing negative emotions and I felt relief. Each time I did cry I felt even more relief. It was the strangest thing and I'm so glad I gave myself the space to heal because it opened me up again so there was space for new.
Healing emotionally is a process of "clearing the pipes" and getting rid of any self judgement for good. You have to find the way that suits you but it involves being kind to yourself, yoga, sleep, water, meditation, crying, journaling, walks in nature, reflection, forgiveness and decluttering! I read in a psychology book years ago that to grieve something the brain has to remember it and recall it before it can let it go. So I found myself thinking of some of the bad times, disappointments, anger, regret, doubt and feeling the emotions which was quite painful and then letting them go! See ya! I would talk to myself and say "ok get out of my body now, I forgive you and I forgive myself! I'm ready for you to leave!" And it did. I used the power of the breathe to let go of a lot of negative energy that I was holding onto.
My life has changed a lot over the past few months. I am more relaxed, centred and grounded. My relationships with my friends and family have blossomed. And I was lucky enough to meet a beautiful man.
For the first time in a long time I am very excited about the future and all the possibilities it holds. So, that's what brings us here to lenilovesyou.com, my way of sharing my message and contributing back to the world. My vision is to share from the heart my learning, thoughts and experiences because I believe we all have a story and it matters to somebody. If we peel off the layers and our true selves then maybe we can help each other heal and move forward. I want us to connect with ourselves, spread the message of joy, peace and love because I believe, those three words alone, would create a better world.
On this site I'll also be sharing my own body transformation including my food and fitness regime as well as what I do mentally to stay focused!
I'm looking forward to improving my heath and fitness over the next 12 weeks and beyond.
- I want to lose about 5kg
- run around the tan twice nonstop and
- hold a handstand for 30seconds.
Even though my goals are important, my focus is on being the best I can be, being happy, present and connected to my dreams, passions and desires - because when we are connected we have boundless energy and we can give so much to others!
I hope you get value out of my story and feel free to pass this on to anyone who you think may like it!
Love Eleni xx